10:00 PM
I’m a bit stressed; Ptr. Boy (our school chaplain) approached me while I was walking at the campus’ grounds and asked me what’s wrong. “You look sad”, he said. In a moody tone I replied, “I’m just tired pastor”. I probably needed some rest.
I’m really used to the stressful nature of my job, still got some projects pending (I have a large white board in my office and it’s full of notes). Yup I’m still here at the school; no longer a student but as a replacement of my good-old-friend (name is confidential).
A sudden shift of heart happened a few weeks before my OJT is about to end. After being cancelled on my OJT, I’ve decided to continue my ministry here as the Media Personnel. But lo; this time I’m going solo. No France, Ivy, Jessie, Macky and the other guys I used to work with that would help me out with my tasks. Not too long ago, I really want to get the crap out of this place, start a new life or probably a new career. But words are still stuck in my heart. Yes, I can get a nice job and eventually earn a lot of money but how about my soul? After accepting Christ in my life, my own definition of happiness has changed. It no longer mean having wads of cash, getting all material treasure this life has to offer or satisfying my flesh for some earthly pleasure. It means something more; seeking a purpose, having joy and sharing the joy you’ve found to others. Will I find it here in this job that I have? And no, it’s not just a job but rather a full time commitment. Someday I’ll die, my brain is going to rot with my body and it’ll come back to dust (or fertilize to the earth and my bones are going to be used as additive to the Bulalo you’ve always ordered =P) and my I’ll be joining Him that day. I just want to do something significant not for myself but for the savior who gave his life for me, something not worth bragging about but somewhat worth sharing to others.
So I’m here, bitter no more. I count my days as another adventure on how I can use the talents and skills He gave me to help other people and to glorify His name here on earth.
